Letters to Ocean #2

SEPTEMBER 27, 2015

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assalamualaikum,

hye dear.

today is 27th of September. it's been 2 weeks since you go. i tau you tak pergi mana-mana pun. pergi kerja je, nanti balik lah kan? but still, you jauh. i can't believe the jokes that we made early this year dah pun jadi kenyataan. masa januari kita rasa september tu jauh sangat tapi pejam celik pejam celik september pun sampai. so does december right?

the first week was hell. everything i do is not falling to where it supposed to be. i was sick to the point that i cannot wake up from my bed. i cannot taste anything. everything is tasteless rasa macam makan pepejal keras tanpa apa-apa perasa. jerebu buat i lagi teruk. ayaq mata ni mengalir ja bila sebut nama haha silly me. mengada gila. tapi macam you kata lah banyakkan selawat mengaji semua. alhamdulillah, dengan bantuan shela dan fajar yang cuba ceriakan i jaga masa i sakit bawak pergi klinik tolong dengar keluh kesah bebelan i, i survived getting out of the storm.

i am recovering. from my bad health. from my not so good mental condition. from everything that seems to become a threat to me. maybe sebab ni first time kot. i am still not good at handling the situation. lama-lama okay lah kan? tulah you, i dah cakap jangan manjakan i. kan dah susah sekarang ni nak mengada je kerjanya hahaha..

tapi masa first day you nak pergi berlayar tu, u look so happy. then i know, working at ocean is your passion. how could i stop you, that will be the most selfish act i'll ever done to you. don't worry, i will support you! and when you called me, that feeling that i cannot described. i bersyukur, you was doing fine. you jaga diri elok-elok kat mana je you pergi. balik nanti dah janji nak belanja makan kan! hiks

hmm being a 'close friend' of a seafarer makes me realizes that i cannot waste any of my precious time when you are at the land. yeap, macam lagu Megan Trainor Like I'm Gonna Lose You. kina suggested me to this song, katanya sesuai dengan situation i haha macam-macam.

okaylah, nanti i cerita lagi. apa apa pun take a good care of yourself. safety first! i am looking forward for december to come :)

~So I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna hold you
Like I'm saying goodbye wherever we're standing
I won't take you for granted 'cause we'll never know when
When we'll run out of time~


yours truly,
syamira

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*forgive my cheesiness that may lead to any nausea or vomiting kekeke this is the only channel that i can rant on my feelings. takut kalau meroyan kat insta orang keji pulak haha*







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